In 1974, artist
Lynn Hershman created Roberta Breitmore as a real life alternate identity for herself. Over the course of four years Roberta had left a paper trail including dental records, a credit report, and a driver’s license. Voyeurs of Breitmore’s life could make up their own interpretations based on what documents they saw and what real-life interactions they experienced. Hershman describes Breitmore as a “mirror that reflected social biases at the time.”
The concept of alternate identities may have been more foreign in the 1970’s, but with the rise of the Internet, normal people make use of alternate identities everyday. Creating an alternate identity is a prerequisite to access online communities even if that identity closely approximates reality. Lynn Hershman likens these identities to tribal masks, “masks camouflage the body, and in doing so liberate and give voice to virtual selves.”
Looking into a mirror and really studying myself has always been odd to me. In real life, I’m usually not too concerned about my own appearance. I wear nondescript clothing and don’t look at the mirror for any longer than a brief glance before leaving my apartment in the morning. Normally I shave whenever my girlfriend or someone else makes the observation that it has been awhile since I’ve shaved. When I look into the mirror for longer than a glance, I often see a stranger staring back. Parts of him look familiar, but the surface of his face is not what I identify with. While playing The Sims 2, my girlfriend recently made avatars that are a close approximation of how we look in real life. Her avatar looked remarkably like how she really looks, right down to an almost exact replica of a shirt she commonly wears. When I first saw my avatar that she created for me, my first reaction was that it was off quite a bit. After examining the avatar more carefully and examining myself in a mirror, I concluded that the avatar was in fact a good approximation of how I looked.
Being a product of the digital age, I have created several alternate identities for myself on the Internet. In an odd way, I sometimes find myself being more concerned of my online alternate identities than my real identity. Facebook and YouTube are my mirrors. They are more like funhouse mirrors than real mirrors, distorting and changing my perception of myself. In Understanding Media The Extensions Of Man, Marshal McLuhan writes that “men at once become fascinated by any extension of themselves in any material other than themselves” He refers to the story of Narcissus and Echo with media being the water Narcissus looks into for the modern man. At one point I found that gazing at myself in the online mirrors was taking up more of my time than it should. Little by little, I started to change my presence on the Internet. I slashed personal information from my Internet profiles, not in fear of online predators, but in fear of myself. While my Facebook account remains today, the profile is truncated and altered to a point that it reflects little of myself. As a result I spend much less time on Facebook than I did in the past.
Beyond using the Internet as a funhouse mirror, I also have several online accounts that serve to completely change who I am in a sort of plastic surgery for the mind. I try on different personalities, genders, and socioeconomic backgrounds by just changing a few parameters. For me, it is often a way for me to explore my sexuality without a body getting in the way. It could be the fulfillment of a fetish that is impossible to achieve in real life or simply a validation from other avatars. I don’t consider myself to be an over sexual person in real life, but I am usually flattered when someone male or female tries to flirt with me. The same feeling is felt when someone makes a comment about my avatar and tries to flirt with me online. These online experiences makes me feel more comfortable about my real life sexuality.
To what extent do online experiences, even ones that involve alternate identities, affect reality? Lynn Hershman states that “reality may be limited to preconceptions that can be verified through words or visual codes. Perceptions are the drive to action that influences, if not controls real events.” Judging from past experience, what an alternate identity does has an impact on that real life person. Often when a person is trying on an alternate identity, he is fantasizing about something he would like to become. Normally I am much more aggressive in my online personalities than in real life, a trait that I wish I had more of in real life. There are a few instances where I have seen a gradual alteration of a person in real life that mirrors aspects of an online personality generated by that person months or sometimes years before. I am mystified and sometimes afraid by games like The Sims, a life sim that has correctly predicted many of my real life events. I don’t attribute any kind of witchcraft to the uncanny way that The Sims predicts things, instead I realize that I am unconsciously directing the events of the game to reflect my goals and desires.
Alternate identities are no longer just the stuff of fiction or psychological sessions. People use alternate identities every time they use in Internet service no matter if it’s just a email account or a service that encourages more elaborate identities like Second Life. Given the way that one’s perceptions can affect real life events, I don’t consider online experiences with alternate identities to be separate experiences from real life. They are instead extensions of people and their desires.